last night.

I feel compelled to escape to the fashion world, where there is no definite right or wrong.

i saw u in paris

i thought u're an english

u still, a bit inviting

u're slier on monday

Floral print dress from Sg. Wang, RM18

Red floral brooch, DIY

White pinstripe men's blazer, hand-me-down

Key-chains necklace, DIY

Oh, n i wore this thing on my head for that bumped up effect!! haha~

I feel better already. :)

Once upon a picnic...

Oh, hello, another delayed post from me. this picture is taken in UPM during my convocation. (17th October 2010). I am very blessed to have an enthusiastic photographer and the ever-so-willing-partner-in-crime En.Nanas. The skirt is given to me by my neighbour a long, long time ago and is actually part of a dress. I chopped off the upper half because there is a huge stain on it. Had to do something with the lower half because i totally love the prints. That's something that you just can't throw away!

Him: Lallalla~~

Her: Oh, mi amour~~

 Her: I've always wanted to be a rockstar.

 Her: *chuckles*

 

 Her: You look exhausted..You should take some rest.

Him: Oh, no. I'm fine.

Her: Oh, give me the guitar!!

 

                     Her: Let's kick arse!!!

                          Him: I'm not too sure...~   

Her: Tube dress worn as inner, RM25, hand-me-down floral skirt (refashioned), lace bolero RM15, COTTON ON black flats

Him: Black fitted blazer (photographer's), shirt and pants (i don't know actually :P), CONVERSE sneakers, polka dot bow tie DIY

Photographer: Paan Adzhar

Taiwan Women Film Festival 2010

So last Saturday i went to the Taiwan Women Film Festival 2010, in HELP uni without any expectation. I saw the trailer for "Spider Lilies' before and the thing that i concluded was:  Lesbian movie.

I thought there will be more 18sx action

Little did i know that during the movie i bawled my eyes out. I was wrong. It's not JUST a lesbian movie - full stop. That movie was good. It was more. I felt that the message was very profound and deep

Although the main gimmick of the movie is the taboo issue of lesbianism (At least in this part of the world it is), according to the director the other central theme of the movie is moving on. The movie depicts the different ways people choose to overcome obstacles in life and the coping mechanism that presumably helps them to go on with life. Go on with life they did but move on, no. Lil Jade is my favourite character.

A young Jade in her made believe world

When Lil jade was younger, her mother left with her brother to Taipei, leaving her with her granny. She was too young to be able to deal with such rejection from being abandoned and so she came up with the stories of how her mother died while saving her from an earthquake. Her coping mechanism is lying to herself. And thus she lives in her own fantasy world where unlike real life she has some control in her life.
 

Her happiness and cheerfulness is just to repress her deeper issues. Everything looks good in this window
As an adult, she decided to be a webcam girl where virtual world becomes her new fantasy world. Her fantasy world offers her a sense of control. When something doesn't go according to plan, she just shuts off by slamming her laptop. Sounds like something that can happen to us.

During the movie the feelings that i get is loneliness. The loneliness of all the character in the movie and how somehow the try to seek companionship as a remedy. And hence, it's not just a movie about homosexuality because in the movie, there was no hesitation or question about whether the girl and girl love is right or wrong. It's as though, the homosexual relationship depicted is an inherent and perfectly normal part of life. And i think it's a brilliant idea to not JUST make a lesbian movie. Sometimes to create awareness you, subtlety is the key. Adios!

Pooh might get photoshooted.

I've always wanted to take some photographs and see how it turn out. Not bad for a first time i guess. I do enjoy outdoor shoot. Hope to do more utilising stuffs that i have tinkered with.

 

Thrifted top (refashioned) Rm10, high waist pencil skirt rm25

On pune: boyfriend shirt RM15, tube dress RM25, studded belt DIY

Seems like it was yesterday.

you know how i try to please you.

it's okay.
you can hurt my feelings.
but u can't own it.

I am happy and grateful for...

Regardless of how i feel previously, I am going to highlight the things that made me happy. (Take that evil Suz!!)

1. My convocation

After 5 years of good hard work (and so much play in between), I've graduated with my Hello Kitty. :) In 2006, i worked in RealRewards counter as a customer service personnel. The manager (superloving Kak Hairani) offered me a Hello kitty as a farewell present. There were many type of Hello Kitties there. I picked the one in the graduation robe because i told myself that I am going to hold this close to me during my convocation.And, there you go. I kept my promise. :)

time to be happy...

I have many happy moments that I don't jot down..It is only when I am depressed that I am compelled to write.. When I read back my post i felt disturbed about the kind of person i have become.. I am a happy person, mind u..i just got lost somewhere..Life will not always turn as we want it but we can always be a happy person in bad situation..haha!

The greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.”

~Martha Washington~

I am going to use this blog to chronicle my happy moments as a reminder to the wonderful things i had and have in life.

Baby are you down..down...down...down~~

Lately i have been rather down. I don't know why. There's a lot i'm dissatisfied with. i feel ashamed to complain outwardly because who wants to listen to your complains?? I hate listening to people complain. So i complained inwardly. I become rude to people close to me whom I feel I'm compromising with. I felt sold out. No more to give. Occasionally i wake up feeling nauseous and reluctant to get out of bed. I wonder what's wrong with me. What happened to my spirit? My dreams. I know I am lost somewhere.

I am the youth of the instant gratification generation. I take things for granted. I wish to be rewarded for my hard work quickly. I lack empathy. The truth is I dream, but i let it go. Caught up in the busy-ness of the days. the wants that i presumed were needs. It makes me feel a little lost. What is life now? Without a dream, without a goal?

Pray to God to let me pull through this phase. I know i will come back to being the cheerful, passionate about life Suz. I just need to sort through some mess. just a little more to wallow and.............complain.

What else is there in life?

It is so lonely to be sitting alone in the room wondering to ownself. What else can i do? What else to do with life? what else can give me eternal happiness?

i miss the circle of friends i used to have while studying. i think i'm just the kind of person that needs a lot of people around her. And, i don't mean colleagues. I try not to get close with them as i do not want to be entangled in office politics. Right now, i don't really have any close friends with me. The one i have now seems rather unreliable. Have to make a lot of compromise to have her as my friend. Can't even have her behaving like a proper friend. I miss my good friend Devebra in Sarawak. She has been very close to me. and i shared a lot with her. I miss her dearly. so so much. Yes, we use to fight and etc but she gave me so much support. Fuh~~ i miss dev2..

wishlist

It's already 7th October 2010..
there's not much time left till the end of this year....

I'm grateful to God for all the exciting things that have happened so far...
Here's my wishlist for the rest of the year..
Watch me come back n slash one by one!!

1. A mini vacation wif nanas busy year for him............. maybe next yr!!
2. dressing upstylishly! i'd say im more adventurous dis yr.. ok, more2!!
3. Photoshoot  with Pune and Nanas
4. Photoshoot with Paan and Nanas
5. Selling items on internet arrr................
6. Refashion more items stil lotsa unfinished projects....focus suz focus!
7. Continuous education
8. Earn rm 4-5k per month
9. give mom rm 500 per month. hurm~
10. Penang Bridge International Marathon
11. workout at least once every week    I'm doing this in preparation for PBIM. 

apa yang hang mau??

there must have been more. than wanting more.

i have everything now.

Life is not the most perfect thing in the world. 

i know

but, why do i feel in need

wanting something. 

there's a void in me

like a black hole

yearning 

to capture every ray of light that passes by. 

I am not perfect

i know. 

but it should be enough. 

what needs to be filled?

what needs to be done?

what do i need to have

who do i have to be.

how come it's not enough? 

can i have something that will completely fill me

never leave me?

if there is then tell me what it is.

i need to know

roses are red, metals are cool.

How can you brighten up a lovely denim tube dress..? (a tad too boring on its own)

I say...Studded Felt Bib Necklace!!

                     
Or, shall we try the multipurpose brooch?

  

I'm liking the bright crimson red. Sure to add a dose of quirkiness to a plain dress!!

Oh, no that's no serious acne. It was just an unmade face.

Crafting the Eco way..

Today, during a visit to KL library. i stumbled upon this book about decoration eco style. What an inspiration. Sometimes we keep on buying and buying stuff. Before u know it there are heaps of stuff you don't need at home. And, to throw it away..yikes...~ i hardly even use them. Right now, I am going to buy only stuff i need and no more buying unnecessarily in the name of crafting.. (and in the end not doin any!!)

what i did with my newspaper.

one's giveaway is another give-a-me...

This awesome Indonesian fashion blogger by the name,  Evita nuh, has been a great inspiration to me with her beautiful lyrical fashion posts.Check her out and you'll see what I mean. What I know for sure is that when i was 11 y/o, i don't know shit bout fashion. And this time she's having a giveway for her 1st year anniversary!!!

I think this is absolutely cute.... oh, i hope to be acquainted with it soon.. till, then...

in another days time..

I am going to have a comprehensive exam. All 5 years crammed in a 3 hour essay paper, 2 hour multiple choice questions and 1 and half hour of oral exam. I repeat: all my 5 years. crammed. I pray to dearest god, give me the strength and blessings, so that i will excel. Thank you god. And, also to all my lovely friends, may the force be with you!

this is not the first..

     .....but it sure is the start. 

I made this for him. It's suppose to be an owl, but it looks more like a penguin now; holding/hiding a heart close to its chest. It is a bird nonetheless. That, i can assure you of (having beak and wings- confirm!!). I did it without much thinking and the whole process took its own life and in 40 minutes or so, there's mr.penguin.

I'd like to think that the birth of mr.penguin is meant to be. nite all.

meanwhile, i oggle~

i hope one day, i will be able to sew this or at least buy it at a cheaper price. ambitious, i know. but, a girl can always dream. i know if i put my mind to it, i will have it. (picture credits:Topshop)




this is another dress that i had a strong feeling towards. i must have worn this in my previous life! (Gossip Girl Season 1 episode 4: Bad News Blair)




not only it looks so cute upfront. the back is a pleasant surprise as well.