Seems like it was yesterday.

you know how i try to please you.

it's okay.
you can hurt my feelings.
but u can't own it.

I am happy and grateful for...

Regardless of how i feel previously, I am going to highlight the things that made me happy. (Take that evil Suz!!)

1. My convocation

After 5 years of good hard work (and so much play in between), I've graduated with my Hello Kitty. :) In 2006, i worked in RealRewards counter as a customer service personnel. The manager (superloving Kak Hairani) offered me a Hello kitty as a farewell present. There were many type of Hello Kitties there. I picked the one in the graduation robe because i told myself that I am going to hold this close to me during my convocation.And, there you go. I kept my promise. :)

time to be happy...

I have many happy moments that I don't jot down..It is only when I am depressed that I am compelled to write.. When I read back my post i felt disturbed about the kind of person i have become.. I am a happy person, mind u..i just got lost somewhere..Life will not always turn as we want it but we can always be a happy person in bad situation..haha!

The greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.”

~Martha Washington~

I am going to use this blog to chronicle my happy moments as a reminder to the wonderful things i had and have in life.

Baby are you down..down...down...down~~

Lately i have been rather down. I don't know why. There's a lot i'm dissatisfied with. i feel ashamed to complain outwardly because who wants to listen to your complains?? I hate listening to people complain. So i complained inwardly. I become rude to people close to me whom I feel I'm compromising with. I felt sold out. No more to give. Occasionally i wake up feeling nauseous and reluctant to get out of bed. I wonder what's wrong with me. What happened to my spirit? My dreams. I know I am lost somewhere.

I am the youth of the instant gratification generation. I take things for granted. I wish to be rewarded for my hard work quickly. I lack empathy. The truth is I dream, but i let it go. Caught up in the busy-ness of the days. the wants that i presumed were needs. It makes me feel a little lost. What is life now? Without a dream, without a goal?

Pray to God to let me pull through this phase. I know i will come back to being the cheerful, passionate about life Suz. I just need to sort through some mess. just a little more to wallow and.............complain.