to do list:

I always have a to-do list with me. Here's to 2011

1. Focus on my passion. Do the things you love everyday.
2. Exercise regularly
3. Eat at a regular time
4. Let loose...BRRRrrr~ Don't be so uptight ay... Be adventurous!! Instead of asking why say why not??
5. Go toThailand
6. Join a dance class
7. Join an dance course?? or anything that promotes self-expression
8. Volunteer in a charity of choice. For the bigger picture.
9. Read more books. Say 36 books this year. 10days for each books.
10. and so much more.

dearest 2011

Dearest 2011,

i am lost
so let me lose myself in you
I have so many fears
so let's face them one by one
I have so many likes
so let's focus on the one by one
I have so many, many wants
but there is only one want i really, really want
I want to wake up looking forward to the day
wake up feeling grateful for doing the
things i love
I want to live a life doing
things I love
being with people
I love
and I will let go all these
other
things that
was never really mine
Amen.

last night.

I feel compelled to escape to the fashion world, where there is no definite right or wrong.

i saw u in paris

i thought u're an english

u still, a bit inviting

u're slier on monday

Floral print dress from Sg. Wang, RM18

Red floral brooch, DIY

White pinstripe men's blazer, hand-me-down

Key-chains necklace, DIY

Oh, n i wore this thing on my head for that bumped up effect!! haha~

I feel better already. :)

Once upon a picnic...

Oh, hello, another delayed post from me. this picture is taken in UPM during my convocation. (17th October 2010). I am very blessed to have an enthusiastic photographer and the ever-so-willing-partner-in-crime En.Nanas. The skirt is given to me by my neighbour a long, long time ago and is actually part of a dress. I chopped off the upper half because there is a huge stain on it. Had to do something with the lower half because i totally love the prints. That's something that you just can't throw away!

Him: Lallalla~~

Her: Oh, mi amour~~

 Her: I've always wanted to be a rockstar.

 Her: *chuckles*

 

 Her: You look exhausted..You should take some rest.

Him: Oh, no. I'm fine.

Her: Oh, give me the guitar!!

 

                     Her: Let's kick arse!!!

                          Him: I'm not too sure...~   

Her: Tube dress worn as inner, RM25, hand-me-down floral skirt (refashioned), lace bolero RM15, COTTON ON black flats

Him: Black fitted blazer (photographer's), shirt and pants (i don't know actually :P), CONVERSE sneakers, polka dot bow tie DIY

Photographer: Paan Adzhar

Taiwan Women Film Festival 2010

So last Saturday i went to the Taiwan Women Film Festival 2010, in HELP uni without any expectation. I saw the trailer for "Spider Lilies' before and the thing that i concluded was:  Lesbian movie.

I thought there will be more 18sx action

Little did i know that during the movie i bawled my eyes out. I was wrong. It's not JUST a lesbian movie - full stop. That movie was good. It was more. I felt that the message was very profound and deep

Although the main gimmick of the movie is the taboo issue of lesbianism (At least in this part of the world it is), according to the director the other central theme of the movie is moving on. The movie depicts the different ways people choose to overcome obstacles in life and the coping mechanism that presumably helps them to go on with life. Go on with life they did but move on, no. Lil Jade is my favourite character.

A young Jade in her made believe world

When Lil jade was younger, her mother left with her brother to Taipei, leaving her with her granny. She was too young to be able to deal with such rejection from being abandoned and so she came up with the stories of how her mother died while saving her from an earthquake. Her coping mechanism is lying to herself. And thus she lives in her own fantasy world where unlike real life she has some control in her life.
 

Her happiness and cheerfulness is just to repress her deeper issues. Everything looks good in this window
As an adult, she decided to be a webcam girl where virtual world becomes her new fantasy world. Her fantasy world offers her a sense of control. When something doesn't go according to plan, she just shuts off by slamming her laptop. Sounds like something that can happen to us.

During the movie the feelings that i get is loneliness. The loneliness of all the character in the movie and how somehow the try to seek companionship as a remedy. And hence, it's not just a movie about homosexuality because in the movie, there was no hesitation or question about whether the girl and girl love is right or wrong. It's as though, the homosexual relationship depicted is an inherent and perfectly normal part of life. And i think it's a brilliant idea to not JUST make a lesbian movie. Sometimes to create awareness you, subtlety is the key. Adios!